Mismanaged Time Management
I’m starting to feel like it might not be me who hates time, but rather, time who hates me.
Time and I have never really gotten along. Ask any one of my friends, relatives, or even teachers and they’ll second that notion. In fact, I was recently threatened with an in-school suspension from the counseling office, which would permanently taint my record with my bad habit. This is a problem, not a personality trait, that I need to fix/needs to be fixed.
At the beginning of this school year and pretty much all of last year, I was late to first hour almost every morning.
The gag is, I don’t sleep in late or hit the snooze button. In fact, my first-generation Samsung phone that I had at the time didn’t even have a snooze button.
So, what was the real issue? I get ready for the day in a timely manner. I wake up at 6:50 a.m. every day and I’m dressed and ready by 7:30 a.m. And from there, I don’t know where the time goes. The next time I look at the clock, it often says 8 a.m. and I have to clamber out the door in an attempt to make it to school on time.
I don’t feel time pass. I just feel like I’m always waiting for something to end or rushing to arrive at something that I’m 10 minutes late to.
It’s not just school that I’m late for, it’s everything. I’m even late to things I look forward to like family get-togethers, dance practice and Homecoming dinner. I was even two days late to my expected birth date.
I’ve heard many adults say that they learned time management in high school. My dance teacher of 15 years was one of these adults, so I asked her how she did it. She just laughed while I genuinely searched in her eyes for a legitimate answer to my question.
I don’t want this to just be 414 words of excuses. I want to change (mostly because I have to). In college, some teachers even lock their doors so you physically can’t get in. I feel that this is the negative reinforcement I need.
So the real question is, can I break this habit? The answer? I have no idea. It shouldn’t be that hard to be on time if everyone else can successfully do it every single day.
For now, I’ll attempt to kickstart my change by setting copious amounts of alarms that go off every five minutes, simply to remind myself that time exists and that it is, in fact, passing.
